Don’t Blink

He was that little blond haired boy with light blue eyes. Big smile that would reach all the way to his ears. Mischievous twinkle peeking out from under those long eyelashes. There he is reaching out for a hand to hold. He needs someone to guide him to show him the way. And at 2 years of age he accepts. He struggles to keep up with his sister and big brother but he succeeds! He most often misses their mark but makes his own. He has been making his own mark ever since. He marches to the beat of his own drum...I could rattle old cliches a page long.

I blinked and there was that same little boy with the blond hair, blue eyes, and mischievous twinkle only instead of reaching for a hand he is pushing it away. Instead of asking someone to guide him he is forging ahead making his own way. He no longer is the “little” brother. He has inches and pounds on both his big brother and big sister.

I read somewhere this morning that as parents we should raise our children that we have, not the children we thought we would have.

I always thought my kids would be the same. But they are so different. They all like different things. They react to everything in different ways. The only thing they do share that I know is the same are memories of Danny, grand parents and church. And even those will be remembered differently. God has made all of my kids unique; all different, all perfect in his sight and of course perfect in mine. Its been 2 years of new beginnings, endings, just life going on. So this week as everyone posts their first day photos I can't help but think of the changes in his life as he starts the 10th grade. I know with every new thing in my life I think of Danny so I know he must think of him on this first day of being a sophomore. Many may say not so much of a milestone but every first that we muddle through without him is a great accomplishment. This one just puts us a little closer to graduation day. I know there will be ups and downs this year but my prayer is for more ups than downs!